Are you going to be the first to say that you give up on someone or something, or hoping to do it at least or hoping to do it only now since you should die, be ruined, fall someday anyway? Would you like to tell yourself or rely on something? The historian of Japanese thoughts says that while saying "would rather do it", on the other hand, hoping to do it "at least", wavering between those feelings is human nature. People always stand in front of the limit. From a book arguing about impermanence, "Since Existing And Not existing."
"January 14 2019
from “Oriori no Kotoba” by Kiyokazu Washida, The Asahi Shimbun"